I’m shy and awkward when I talk with people. It happens when I’m talking socially one-on-one, or with a small group of people. I feel uncomfortable and I can see it reflected back on the other person’s or people’s face. It’s been this way as far back as I remember.
What helps is I don’t think I should feel okay when I’m talking with others. It’s like I was born with a limp in this particular way. I figure it will always be there.
Since I don’t try and force myself to be different, I tend to try to avoid talking with people. That makes sense since it doesn’t feel good.
It’s fascinating to me that I don’t feel uncomfortable when I’m doing a clutter busting talk or working with a client, or when I’m on stage telling funny stories or singing. It’s not that I’m putting on an act. I feel honest and open. Afterwards I feel wonderful. I feel the same way with five very close friends I’d known for many years.
I’m most relaxed when I’m by myself. I often feel happy and curious and adventurous.
What helps most of all is accepting that these are the ways I am.