Going on the internet was becoming clutter for me. I felt like I was spending too much time reading news sites, or checking email and facebook. Afterwards I felt a loss. Like I was missing a part of myself. I think I was doing it to feel more connected, but I ended up feeling more separate. Also, I felt like I always had to have my phone near me in case someone needed to reach me. That left me feeling adrenlized, which was exhausting. I knew I had to do something different.
Luckily I heard about a book called, The Power of Off: the Mindful Way to Stay Sane in a Virtual World, by Nancy Colier. She kindly talks about how to take back your life from the pull of device and internet technology, so you can reconnect with yourself.
One of the things Nancy wrote about that rang true for me is that the internet and cell phones are 24 hour machines. At any moment we can receive a call, text, email, snapchat, facetime, or a news text. As a result, part of us is always waiting and ready. We’ve become relentlessly available. That continual alertness is exhausting. It’s like we become robots. We don’t notice the stress of living this way because many other people live this way. It seems like the new normal. Nancy recommended curiously noticing how you actually interact with your phone and the internet. When you feel to check your phone for texts, or email, or to go online and look up information, stop and ask, “Why am I doing this?” Basically it’s a way to take the attention off of the devices and put it back on ourselves. I can attest to this.
This experience has been a nice reminder to me that it’s important for me to have time where I’m not available, where I can float in the moment, where my mind isn’t occupied on information or facts. I need these private times to recharge and get back my sense of self.