Hi. It’s been a hard week for me because my dad is dying. It hurts my heart to experience him suffering.
I can feel myself not wanting him to go. But he’s fading away. He knows he’s going. He’s actually been decluttering this past week. I didn’t even suggest it to him. He’s letting go of everything. I can feel that’s his way of letting go of his life. He’s not resisting his death.
For most of his life he was strong-willed. He would get impatient if things weren’t a particular way. But now that persona is falling away. There’s this incredible ease in his voice that I’ve never heard before. He’s being incredibly vulnerable. As a result, it’s making my heart open to his. Last night I wrote and recorded a birthday song for him. It’s his birthday today. He loved the recording.
I realize I can’t hold on to him. He’s going. I imagine when he’s gone I’m going to feel a lot. I think it’s going to hurt. Though there’s something beautiful in the pain of loss.
The next Weekly Clutter Busting Webinar is on Monday, March 26th at 5pm PST. This will be the fourth one. I’ve enjoyed being a part of them because of the people who have been attending. They’ve been very courageous in showing up, talking about their clutter situations, and taking a deep look at what’s no longer serving them. It’s wonderful to see someone get a realization that something is no longer working for them. Plus it’s been nice to feel the attendee’s support for one another.