Well, it’s been about two weeks and I definitely feel grief. It’s a tiredness and sadness that hang heavily in me. Initially I tried to avoid the grief because it was too much for me. But acceptance of the pain kicked in, and I stopped trying to make it go away, or pretend it’s not there. I remembered what I learned from my clients who had lost their parents, that grief is a natural occurrence that you can’t avoid, and it takes the time it takes to heal.
Before I go to sleep at night, I’ve been laying in bed and feeling the sadness. I’m with the grief, like I’m holding its hand, and patiently keeping it company…writing that inspired me to stop in the midst of writing you and be with the grief feeling. I could feel it wanting my attention. Being with the grief makes me feel very alive.
There’s something so vital about about experiencing this extremely vulnerable part of myself. It seems like the pulse of life is in the midst of the grief.
I’m curious to see how the grief evolves in me. I feel like a restructuring is happening. I hope to be able to remember this and have patience with the process. I’m sure there will be times I won’t. But then again, I’ll probably remember and be able to tend to myself.
The Weekly Clutter Busting webinar is still happening. I took a week off after my dad died. But we started up again a few days ago. If you’re interested in signing up and being part of the next one on April 30th, click here.
Also, I’m doing my next As You Are show next Wednesday, April 2nd at 7pm. It’s the show I created where I celebrate the wonderfulness of people as they are. Here’s an article a local paper wrote about the show. If you live in the Bay Area of Northern California, I invite you to come join us. It’s at the Sebastopol Library, 7140 Bodega Ave, Sebastopol, CA 95472